that feeling is escaping


Peter van Agtmael’s artist website here. Screen shot 2014-06-30 at 8.34.28 PMPeter van Agtmael, Untitled from Inside the Wire: American Wars 2013-2014.

Screen shot 2014-06-30 at 8.34.40 PMPeter van Agtmael, Untitled from Inside the Wire: American Wars 2013-2014.

Screen shot 2014-06-30 at 8.35.38 PMPeter van Agtmael, Untitled from Inside the Wire: American Wars 2013-2014.

Screen shot 2014-06-30 at 8.34.52 PMPeter van Agtmael, Untitled from Inside the Wire: American Wars 2013-2014.

Screen shot 2014-06-30 at 8.35.14 PMPeter van Agtmael, Untitled from Inside the Wire: American Wars 2013-2014.

Screen shot 2014-06-30 at 8.35.29 PMPeter van Agtmael, Untitled from Inside the Wire: American Wars 2013-2014.

Screen shot 2014-06-30 at 8.34.20 PMPeter van Agtmael, Untitled from Inside the Wire: American Wars 2013-2014.

Screen shot 2014-06-30 at 8.35.02 PMPeter van Agtmael, Untitled from Inside the Wire: American Wars 2013-2014.

There was a time when I would obsessively spend my nights looking at war photographs. Then a time where I told myself I would never forget what that time was like. Nearly two years he has been back and I find myself forgetting about those excruciatingly long 10 months – and about all the boys who have lived in this time since then. Thank you, Peter van Agtmael for reminding me.


[the power of the photograph, propels one to a specific time and a specific place. Not just to what is shown but to what that image represents to who is looking]

not to be ignored.


used to spend a lot of time looking at photographs of the war in Afghanistan, searching for some sort of insight or information that would tell me exactly what it was like. Although I did find some incredible images (many that I showed here), the moment I saw these photographs by artist Dima Gavrysh, I found what I had been looking for.. a nuanced yet powerful glimpse of the emotional side of war. 
"SOLDIERS OF ZEROK"Dima Gavrysh, Untitled from Soldiers of Zerok

Inshallah_Dima_Gavrysh_DG_002_600Dima Gavrysh, Untitled from Inshallah 

Inshallah_Dima_Gavrysh_DG_007_600Dima Gavrysh, Untitled from Inshallah 

Inshallah_Dima_Gavrysh_DG_021_600Dima Gavrysh, Untitled from Inshallah 

Inshallah_Dima_Gavrysh_DG_008_600Dima Gavrysh, Untitled from Inshallah 

Inshallah_Dima_Gavrysh_DG_016_600Dima Gavrysh, Untitled from Inshallah 

Photo by Dima Gavrysh. (C)2011.Dima Gavrysh, Untitled from Inshallah 

Inshallah_Dima_Gavrysh_DG_013_600
Dima Gavrysh, Untitled from Inshallah 

Inshallah_Dima_Gavrysh_DG_019_600Dima Gavrysh, Untitled from Inshallah 

Inshallah_Dima_Gavrysh_DG_023_600Dima Gavrysh, Untitled from Inshallah 

Inshallah_Dima_Gavrysh_DG_030_600

Dima Gavrysh, Untitled from Inshallah 

"SOLDIERS OF ZEROK"
Dima Gavrysh, Untitled from Soldiers of Zerok

Dima Gavrysh’s Artist Website Here. 

So it begins.


Thinking about all the families and soldiers who head into their holiday season separated. After last year, I don’t think the holidays could possibly ever look the same to me, but I am beyond thankful that I get this year with my entire family.. 

Peter van Agtmael, Untitled from Inside the Wire:American WarsPeter Van Agtmael, Untitled from On Patrol:American Wars

Peter van Agtmael, Untitled from On Patrol: American Wars

Peter Van Agtmael’s Website.

Adam Ferguson, Untitled from Wardak Series

Adam Ferguson, Untitled from Wardak Series

Adam Ferguson, Untitled from Wardak Series

Adam Ferguson’s Website.

Let me come home.


and I am back! For the past week I have been in Texas for my brother’s official homecoming. It was such an amazing experience and the Welcome Home Party I have been planning for the past month, went off without a hitch. I had a blast crafting and decorating Cadillac Pub with an insane amount of patriotic gear. The entire room was vibrating with nothing but love and happiness as all our family, friends, past teachers and the mayor, gathered to welcome my brother home. I even mustered enough courage to give a brief speech! I could not be more proud of my big brother and the party was the perfect happy ending to such a dark year.

 (can you spot the cardboard cut out of my brother in one of these pictures? His friends made it of him while he was in Afghanistan so he could still be in the pictures at his best friends wedding.. ridiculously awesome.) 

During my stay in Texas, I somehow managed to abstain from the internet the entire trip. No art blogs. No news/gossip sites. No googlereader. I watched an embarrassing amount of Duck Dynasty, savored every second with my cat, George (I  can’t take him to NYC with me..) & hung out with my brother. Very relaxing but It’s back to reality.. and I have a ton to catch up on. Be back after the weekend with lots of artthings! 

isn’t he purrfect? I miss him so much already.. 

Mission Accomplished


I am sorry for the extended absence but it’s with good reason…last night, after 10 months of deployment my brother finally came home from Afghanistan. (You may remember my post from when he left here)  

There are no words to describe what it was like standing in the blazing setting El Paso sun.. watching that plane appear in the far distance, only to land right in front of us with our soldiers finally stepping foot onto USA soil. Amazing, emotional, relieving, patriotic, filled with pride, admiration, gratitude.. it is just absolutely indescribable. Welcome home, big brother. my brother, Stephen (waving to us) and his sergeant moments after stepping foot on American soil.

our welcome home signs

first formation back or take your sister to work day today! 

far, far away


Looking at photographs of the Afghanistan War is always a sobering experience for me. Since my brother has been deployed, I seem to see his face in every photograph so sometimes I almost don’t want to look. But then, I think of all the people who seem to go about their day to day, without thinking about our boys overseas and I force myself to see and feel, hope and pray.

       

Balazs Gardi, Untitled from the project Basetrack, (iphone photography using Hipstamatic filter) artistwebsite.

Larry Towell, Untitled from Crisis in Afghanistan, 2004

Peter Van Agtmael, Untitled from Inside the Wire artistwebsite.

Peter Van Agtmael, Untitled from Inside the Wire artistwebsite.

Lynsey Addario, Korengal Valley, Afghanistan 2008 artistwebsite.

Benjamin Lowy, Untitled from Iraq Perspectives II artistwebsite.

Adam Ferguson, A US Army soldier in Wardak Province, Afghanistan, 2009. artistwebsite.

Adam Ferguson, Soldiers from Bravo Company  in the Korengal Valley, Afghanistan. 2009 artistwebsite.

legacy


{I wanted to get this post up earlier but I have been troubleshooting my finicky scanner nearly all day. Now that I finally have it working I am rushed to get things scanned and semi-edited before I go into work.. so just a warning, this photograph is not what it could/should be.}

Yesterday, my Grandpa Jack got inducted into the Army Quartermaster Hall of Fame in Fort Lee, Virginia. I shot this photograph of him right before he left with my Bronica. Congratulations Grandpa, I am so proud of you! I Love you and hope you enjoyed your big day!